Thursday, April 21, 2011

Sailing Solo

A song played constantly in my head that summer, Lee Ann Womack's, I Hope You Dance . Every time I heard it or sang along with it. I was reminded that my life was going to be what I made of it.  I didn't want to get down the road and look back and wish for something else. Who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone?

When I hear that song now, it takes me to driving back and forth out on my own.  I had been shy and awkward about life; I wasn't going to be that way anymore.  I was like a snowball pushed down a hill, growing in experience and force.  Once I got started making choices for myself, I felt empowered.  It was thrilling to be able to reinvent me.

Being alone was okay but I didn't want this for my future.  I liked sharing my life with someone.  Nothing was going to bring Rick back but the future was mine.  A friend told me, "If it's to be, it's up to me." I tried to live that statement..  I was ready to greet life. Things that seemed like challenges before just seemed small in comparison to what I had been through.

I sailed alone frequently during the end of that summer.  I loved it.  The power of the wind on blustery days was invigorating.  I loved when the boat heeled and cut through the water.  I leaned back and held the mainsheet (line or rope) and tiller, my body leaning against the opposite side to counterbalance the tilt of the boat.  Even alone, I wasn't afraid.  I was a new Jane.


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  2. I found you via the blog hop. Whenever I am feeling down or confused, I gravitate towards the beach. The salty air, ever present wind and sheer magnitude of the ocean helps put my problems into perspective.

    Your writing style is engaging and I will follow along with your blog.

    I just started a new blog and would love a comment in response. It's much more practical than joining along in your life journey, but is important to me.

    All the best,


  3. i love that song as well. I think its empowering. It reminds us to always seize the day.

  4. This was the perfect song to end the night on. Thank you for sharing your heart with us, stat true to yourself always.

    Lisa x