As I began to read the cards I was moved in a powerful way. I was sitting in a puddle of tears after about five of them: they were so touching to read. I felt such an assurance of our love for each other as I read. I found many I had kept from his family and later gave them back to each. I think it is important to know that the one who has died understood your love for them: this was why I gave them back to his mom, brothers and sisters.
We were all rather stunned as this was not my mom’s usual style to make announcements of love at family gatherings. “Mom, we know that you love us too,” we said. “That’s all that matters,” she said.
I was there at my brother’s house for four days; each day I was looking for the right moment to say it. How do you say goodbye to your mother? Leaving meant that I might never see her again. As I was getting ready to leave, she was sitting on the couch; I was putting my shoes on and hopped on the couch next to her and leaned over to her and took her hand. “Mom, I know that you know how much I love you.”I said through tears. She said, “It’s all that matters, isn’t it?”