I knew our anniversary would be a sad day so I took the day off from school and decided to go to mass. I drove out to the church and Steve celebrated mass. After I spoke to him for a few minutes before leaving. "What do I do with a day like this for the rest of my life?"I asked. He didn't have an answer for me. It would have been our fifteenth anniversary.
It was a day for me, a day to reflect and rest. I ended up at the mall. My brother Dan had invited me to a Christmas party hosted by his friend each year. I forced myself to go. It was in Old Town Alexandria. It was hard to enjoy myself but I was glad I made the effort to go.
I missed sharing my life with someone and knew that I wanted to married again but all that seemed impossible at this point. I decided to roll with the punches and see what happened in my life.I liked the idea of reinventing me. To become who I wanted to be was the goal. Each day got easier and for that I could be thankful.
Jane, I have just spent the entire morning reading your story. Thank you so much for being willing to share all of these deep emotions.I don't really have to the words to express what I'm feeling right now.
ReplyDeleteYou are a strong and honest woman. I'm anxious to hear the rest of the story.
Linda